Karla Homolka gave her first interview to Radio-Canada, and said she poses no danger to anyone and does not want to be hounded, after her release from a Montreal prison.
Speaking in French, Homolka, 35, said she wants to restart her life in Quebec.
“I don’t want people to think that I am someone dangerous who will do something to their children,” she said.
Homolka and her then-husband Paul Bernardo kidnapped, sexually assaulted, tortured and killed two teenage girls in the early 1990s in Ontario.
The former veterinarian’s assistant received 12 years in prison in return for her testimony against Bernardo, who is serving a life sentence.
In 1993 she was convicted of manslaughter for her role in the kidnappings, rapes and murders of Ontario teenagers Kristen French and Leslie Mahaffy.
The sentence also included punishment for the 1990 death of her own 15-year-old sister Tammy, who died on Christmas Even after Homolka held a drug-soaked cloth over her mouth while both she and Bernardo raped her.
The girl choked on her own vomit and died.
“I cry a lot. I can’t bring myself to forgive myself,” said Homolka in the interview.
“I think about what I did and often I think that I don’t deserve to be happy because of what I did.”
She said she is remorseful and wished she had stopped the killings, blaming youth, a lack of self-confidence and a desire to be in a relationship for what she did.
“I didn’t initiate the crimes. I followed. Yes, I did what I did but….” she said.
She has changed her name to Karla Teale, and there are reports she is headed for the Elizabeth Fry Society halfway house for female inmates in Montreal, in her first stop on the outside.
Homolka told the court and psychiatrists that she had been subjected to domestic abuse, and took part in the crimes to protect herself.
She struck a lenient plea-bargain deal for manslaughter in return for testifying against Bernardo, an agreement dubbed “a deal with the devil”.
However months later, Bernardo’s lawyers released homemade videotapes showing Homolka was a willing participant.